What do you do while you really feel in a non secular block?

I have not been feeling related to my altar as a lot as I often do, I’ve missed Moon phases, and the Moon is a very powerful side of my observe. However I do not do it on goal, it is nearly as if one thing is obstructing my non secular reference to the universe… I have been in a really down temper, I do not know what is going on on.

HELP!

Hiya! I’m penning this with tears in my eyes, hoping I’ll discover some decision right here. I do not understand it that is the place to ask, and, if not, please don’t be indignant with me, simply information me the place else ought to I ask.
So, three weeks in the past, a neighbour poisoned my canine. Max was a German Sheperd combine, an attractive 9 years outdated boy, however we’d usually go exterior at evening and howl on the moon. My neighbour didn’t complain, he simply poisoned him over evening, for my dad to seek out him chilly and stiff the following morning. We liked him with all of our coronary heart, we miss him dearly, and we tried pursuing a authorized motion in opposition to the a*gap, however, as there have been no whitnesses to the crime, he cannot be charged with something. We solely understand it was him as a result of he bragged about it to my dad that terrible morning, that he lastly acquired some silence.
I by no means had any hyperlinks to magic, however, as a final resort, I really feel in my coronary heart, I wish to curse or hex him. I would like him to endure, I wish to have some revenge for my candy candy boy, I am unable to simply let it slide. Is there such a curse/hex? The place would I discover it? Assist me please, and sorry if I requested within the unsuitable place and/or offended anybody with my submit.

Sources for secular, non-theistic witchcraft?

I’ve learn a few books at my native bookstore, however the choice is on the small facet. I’ve learn this one by cunningham(?), A Information for the Solitary Practitioner and located it somewhat useful and I’ve a guide known as Sensible Solitary Magic by N. Watson on my future studying record after searching google for a bit, however I’ll go to my campus library to see if I can discover anything.

I perceive that avoiding faith in witchcraft could be unattainable anyway, however something which may assist me construct a sturdy basis with out involving divinity could be actually useful. My aim is simply to study as a lot about secular witchcraft with a heavy deal with nature in order that I can begin growing my very own private follow in a manner that matches up with my beliefs some day.

Any suggestions?