Hey everybody, what’s up? I am a 21 12 months outdated man from Lebanon, at the moment dwelling within the US. I’ve all the time struggled with a definitive path for my spirituality since I used to be younger, and coming from a rustic with a bloody previous of sectarian violence and fixed struggle, I used to be afraid to deliver any of that up.
Half of my household is Greek Orthodox, the remainder are Maronite Catholic, so I come from a christian household. I do know a number of respectable muslims, and I appeared into that religion, however I actually did not suppose it was for me. My wrestle is between Christianity and a extra imprecise pagan-style spirituality. I grew up realizing and loving Christ, and nonetheless do. However I really feel like there may be extra to the non secular facet of the world, and I do know my ancestors the Phoenician/Canaanites knew it too.
One large concern I’ve is that the Outdated Testomony of the Bible options God commanding the Hebrews to genocide the Canaanites, my ancestors. So why would I participate in a faith that features a gigantic and detailed chapter concerning the bloodbath of my distant ancestors? I am additionally drawn to the concept of a Goddess determine or a number of goddesses. A scarcity of a feminine deity within the Bible all the time actually messed with me too.