Whats up all!
I simply ran throughout this as we speak. Pardon format, on cellular, different excuses and so on. this can be a semi lengthy submit/rant and if anybody has any recommendation it will be drastically appreciated.
So I concern I might need walked away from magic for too lengthy. Once I began my journey I had a major different in my life that was serving to me. Answering questions, lending me books and pointing me to web sites that have been credible. It was nice. For some time.
A number of months into the connection, it lasted roughly one yr, issues began to alter. I used to be having nightmares each night time that may wake me and I used to be all the time on edge. To make this lengthy half quick, the SO confessed to cursing me with nightmares.
This did not come till after we had already break up up, and the information scared the hell out of me. I knew curses and hexes have been on the market, and I’ve completed some delicate studying on them. Form of like my private Protection Towards the Darkish Arts. Know what you are coping with.
Anyway, after I realized this I began having some doubts. She had taught me all I knew on the time and I had simply realized cursing was one thing she was snug with. I feared the magic and teachings she gave me might need had some darkish background. I eliminated all her teachings from my Guide of Shadows, and that is the place it ended.
That was about 2 years in the past (wow the time flies)
I’ve completed minor spells right here and there, however not like I used to. Now I need to begin training extra and get again within the swing of issues. Nevertheless…it does not really feel the identical.
Once I solid a spell or do a ritual, I haven’t got the identical feeling I used to have inside me. I am afraid I stepped away for therefore lengthy I’ve misplaced, or not less than forgotten, the texture of magic.
Has anybody else ever had this? Stepping away for an extended time period after which when going again feeling like you may’t do something anymore? I preserve telling myself I simply want to sit down down and preserve making an attempt. Nevertheless it’s so discouraging.
I will finish my rant right here. I am sorry there wasn’t a lot circulate and it was a whole lot of semi-personal information. I’ve no pals that observe magic. They’re all atheist so I haven’t got anybody to speak to and after discovering this sub I felt like I wanted to get it out.
Thanks for studying!