My boyfriend purchased a home lately. We lived collectively beforehand in his 1-bedroom residence. That complete time I longed for my very own area for witchy issues and for different private stuff. I fortunately practiced in the lounge of the small residence though hardly any of it was “mine.” The brand new home is considerably small, however after all it is a a lot larger improve in comparison with the cramped residence. There’s technically 2 bedrooms upstairs, however one will not be closed off, it’s open to the residing area and lobby, so my boyfriend determined to place the lounge within the open area “bed room” as an alternative, leaving our private areas within the basement. The basement is separated by a number of curtains that splits the 2 sides down the center. We every took a aspect. On condition that he paid for your entire place and I am under no circumstances financially accountable apart from paying him lease so to talk, I let him choose the place he wished the whole lot with little to no argument. The earlier house owners used one aspect of the basement as a front room and the opposite aspect was storage (the basement will not be completed, but it surely is not moist or something. It is completely superb to spend a number of hours at a time down there). He took the aspect that was beforehand the lounge, so it has good bamboo blinds on the wall and carpet rugs. It’s homey and good for an unfinished basement. My aspect of the basement could be very a lot the alternative. Naked, concrete block partitions, the ground is roofed by shitty non-carpet rugs, and the general really feel of my aspect of the basement is chilly and naked.
I am in a monetary pickle proper now, in order a lot as I might love to start out shopping for up a bunch of tapestries and curtains to assist the texture of the room, I can not. My boyfriend makes positive I eat, could make it to and from work, and my cat has litter and meals if I am unable to pay for these issues in between paychecks, however (understandably) he does not give me any sort of allowance for enjoyable issues. Which is ok as I might really feel hella bizarre if I used to be utilizing his cash for enjoyable or private gadgets.
I am simply struggling to observe in any respect proper now. I cleansed the basement and shortly I plan to cleanse your entire dwelling, however I can not even muster the vitality to carry out the spells and rituals I have been which means to do since my witchy area simply feels so boring and chilly. I may doubtlessly transfer these issues upstairs quickly for rituals and spells, however since issues are in a disarray from shifting, there’s not a lot room and truthfully it is not a lot of an enchancment from the basement.
I do know it should not matter that a lot, however I am very a lot an atmospheric-focused individual, and if my environment do not feel proper, then I can not really feel snug sufficient to observe the Craft. I am engaged on crunching some numbers/budgeting, and possibly I should purchase some cheap tapestries, curtains, or posters separately every paycheck. Till my area looks like, properly…*my* area, do any of you have got ideas? I really feel responsible that I have not carried out a lot moreover mild candles and incense right here and there. I attempted chatting with the deities final week, however I could not join in that area. Is there any method I can acclimate and discover a connection with out spending so much or any cash? I do know it takes work to get issues excellent, particularly after shedding virtually all of my prized possessions (issues that may make my area extra *mine*, together with some decorations) in a nasty breakup early final yr. Virtually all of the issues I’ve are issues with little which means to me since I misplaced a lot.
I simply really feel so unattached to my spirituality proper now.